Friday, September 9, 2011

"Bad habits are like a comfortable bed, easy to get into, but hard to get out of." Anonymous

Binges.  Yes, I said it......binges.  For the last 10+ years, Friday nights were my "binge nights."  Don't judge me.  It's not like I went   "wooo hooo....friday!  I am gonna eat myself silly as a reward for my stressful week"  BUT my husband works friday nights.  The kids would be in bed and I had the evening ahead of me to watch whatever I wanted on tv and treat myself to some kind of food reward.  Inevitably, one treat would lead to the next, and to the next until I was spiraling completely out of control and soothing my troubles away with ice cream or chips.  No one was there to see it happen --that's most likely why I could do it.

I always spent days after the binge guilt-ridden... sometimes the guilt lead me to another binge or all-day graze-fest.

I am happy to report that part of my pre-op work (assigned to myself by me!) was to try and break the cycle of the dreaded "binge and restrict."  I have only had one binge in 8 months which is good.  Right now though, I can feel the urge and it is scaring me.

I know the "soothing" effect from food does NOT last and the guilt that follows is horrible.  I know that the urge is part stress related and part hormonal related (TOM).  I know that my plan to go get on the treadmill will get my mind off of "mindlessly eating" --at least for awhile.  I know food is NOT the answer.  I know I can do this....it's just a bad habit.

What's your bad habit and how do you deal with trying to break it?

8 comments:

  1. I can have anything I want ....the band helps me to keep it doable....except for ...maybe alcohol.

    ReplyDelete
  2. eating because I'm aggravated...and eating because I'm tired.
    Hm...odd that I feel guiltier for taking the nap than for eating the chocolate. But the nap would for sure be better for me and I'd be less grumpy....

    ReplyDelete
  3. i was so there tonight. My hubby is working and I just want the cupcakes sitting in the kitchen! Normally i would have eaten at least 3 by now. I had 3/4 of one and then did a workout video. It is hard to fight the urge, especially when no one is watching! I found those mini 150 cal microwave cakes help with a bit of ice cream. it's a 250 cal binge instead of 1000 calorie one.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Well I did one of my bad habits this morning! I have to make a dish for a birthday party tonight and I stopped by the grocery store at 7 a.m. They had donuts fresh and even though I know. I mean I really know that a donut doesn't go down I still tried to eat one. I ended up giving 3/4 of it to my dog but I am still suffering. I call it a binge. But I do this often! I try and eat something I know I shouldn't and I keep trying until I can't. It is so stupid!

    ReplyDelete
  5. I feel the need to snack when I am irritated, especially at work. I usually force myself to drink water now. Plus I got some 100 calorie bags of doritos if I really feel the need. It keeps it under control anyway.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Oh my, I think you described my life. Only mine was mornings, no one's home... why shouldn't I eat 8 whole pancakes swimming in a whole cup of syrup? LOL

    I don't know how you overcome it, I'll let you know if I ever find out. :)

    ReplyDelete
  7. P.S. - I was going to e-mail you but your comment didn't have an e-mail address attached, I would be completely in your debt if you were to send me some 16's. :) Lee's is my go-to brand!

    E-mail me at bandumentary@gmail.com and we'll talk! :)

    ReplyDelete
  8. Psst, there's an award waiting for you on my blog. ;)

    ReplyDelete