Binges. Yes, I said it......binges. For the last 10+ years, Friday nights were my "binge nights." Don't judge me. It's not like I went "wooo hooo....friday! I am gonna eat myself silly as a reward for my stressful week" BUT my husband works friday nights. The kids would be in bed and I had the evening ahead of me to watch whatever I wanted on tv and treat myself to some kind of food reward. Inevitably, one treat would lead to the next, and to the next until I was spiraling completely out of control and soothing my troubles away with ice cream or chips. No one was there to see it happen --that's most likely why I could do it.
I always spent days after the binge guilt-ridden... sometimes the guilt lead me to another binge or all-day graze-fest.
I am happy to report that part of my pre-op work (assigned to myself by me!) was to try and break the cycle of the dreaded "binge and restrict." I have only had one binge in 8 months which is good. Right now though, I can feel the urge and it is scaring me.
I know the "soothing" effect from food does NOT last and the guilt that follows is horrible. I know that the urge is part stress related and part hormonal related (TOM). I know that my plan to go get on the treadmill will get my mind off of "mindlessly eating" --at least for awhile. I know food is NOT the answer. I know I can do this....it's just a bad habit.
What's your bad habit and how do you deal with trying to break it?
I can have anything I want ....the band helps me to keep it doable....except for ...maybe alcohol.
ReplyDeleteeating because I'm aggravated...and eating because I'm tired.
ReplyDeleteHm...odd that I feel guiltier for taking the nap than for eating the chocolate. But the nap would for sure be better for me and I'd be less grumpy....
i was so there tonight. My hubby is working and I just want the cupcakes sitting in the kitchen! Normally i would have eaten at least 3 by now. I had 3/4 of one and then did a workout video. It is hard to fight the urge, especially when no one is watching! I found those mini 150 cal microwave cakes help with a bit of ice cream. it's a 250 cal binge instead of 1000 calorie one.
ReplyDeleteWell I did one of my bad habits this morning! I have to make a dish for a birthday party tonight and I stopped by the grocery store at 7 a.m. They had donuts fresh and even though I know. I mean I really know that a donut doesn't go down I still tried to eat one. I ended up giving 3/4 of it to my dog but I am still suffering. I call it a binge. But I do this often! I try and eat something I know I shouldn't and I keep trying until I can't. It is so stupid!
ReplyDeleteI feel the need to snack when I am irritated, especially at work. I usually force myself to drink water now. Plus I got some 100 calorie bags of doritos if I really feel the need. It keeps it under control anyway.
ReplyDeleteOh my, I think you described my life. Only mine was mornings, no one's home... why shouldn't I eat 8 whole pancakes swimming in a whole cup of syrup? LOL
ReplyDeleteI don't know how you overcome it, I'll let you know if I ever find out. :)
P.S. - I was going to e-mail you but your comment didn't have an e-mail address attached, I would be completely in your debt if you were to send me some 16's. :) Lee's is my go-to brand!
ReplyDeleteE-mail me at bandumentary@gmail.com and we'll talk! :)
Psst, there's an award waiting for you on my blog. ;)
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