I have the best friends a girl could ask for. They love me no matter what choices I make, size I am, or crazy new idea I have. To illustrate this point, I have to share a story about them and the reason this post is titled what it is.
Two years ago we went on a girls' trip to Ojai. Of course shopping at the outlet mall was a scheduled stop. (Now for those of you who shop plus size, you can probably relate to how NOT FUN shopping in the regular stores can be-- knowing that you can't wear any of the clothes because they won't fit.) Well we divided up into two groups at some point...those who wanted to continue to shop and those who were ready to go to the house. Apparently, the girls who stayed to shop some more, came across these hot pink shorts and wanted to get them for the group. (yes, we are dorky...matchy-matchy-- but only when we go to the gym or for a walk on the beach.) Anyhoo, when they arrived at the hotel and gave out this little surprise, I found out they bought shorts in size medium......for all of us.
Now, I am NOT a medium....NOT even a large.....XL or XXL..that's me. I KNOW they probably struggled in the store with the notion that I would have gotten my feelings hurt if they bought me the appropriate size for my butt, but honestly, I wouldn't have. The end result is that I know they got everyone the same size so I wouldn't feel weird or uncomfortable. The shorts were really stretchy, yes, I could wear them....with a huge t-shirt over them so you couldn't see all of my rolls, but they didn't fit comfortably and still don't. (think sausage casing...not pretty)
So, here is what I am asking you: Is being able to wear those shorts with a tank top or t-shirt and feel good in them a good goal? I have been asked at all my pre-op appointments "what is your goal weight?" I honestly don't know....I have an idea, but quite frankly, I just want to be smaller and STAY AT THAT WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I now may just answer the above question with "I want to feel good in my pink shorts...whatever number on the scale that is."