Saturday, July 14, 2012

Ten Things.........Saturday. Yep, I don't care...I am doing it anyway!

I have been away from my computer for far too long.

 I have been reading your posts, commenting...but not as often as I should..... but where has my motivation to write gone???  who knows? 

I am dedicating this TTT to update all of you on my weird pains....stomach- back-side this a band slip type situtaion? 

1.  had a total unfill about a month ago.

2.  Upper GI came back fine.  No slip...yippee

3.  Had an abdominal ultrasound to check things out....everyone seemed to be leaning towards the gallbladder acting up.

4.  Ultrasound came back great!  Had the doc who read the ultrasound, the GP, and my surgeon all confused.

5.  Apparently, nothing is wrong with me......except for the weird 9-12 hour episodes of horrible pain and the chills 3 different times over May and June.  But nothing seems to be wrong.

6.  found out my stoma can hold 24 cc in volume.  Surgeon says that's a bit on the small size...30 cc is the norm.  Really though...who out there knows how big their stoma is?? Could this account for the crazy reaction I have to the slightest fill?  Is this why eating even a 1/2 cup of food when I was filled would be impossible?  He also said something else was on the small size in diameter.  Hmmmmm.

7.  Right now I have 1.5 cc in my band and I think the most I will ever get to is going to be 2.5 cc in a 10 cc band.  Crazy huh?  I just can't seem to have much in the band with out it slamming shut.  (also see #8)

8.  Why so little in the band?  Reason #1:  Well, after a very scary month of being completely UNFILLED, I was able to fight my food addiction and not gain any weight.  It was actually kind of scary though.  I did have one binge...not too bad...but the event scared me b/c I could have completely gone back to my old ways.  It was hard to keep things in check because I could eat whatever I wanted!  Reason #2 I am about 2.5 lbs away from my goal weight of 140.  No need to get myself into some crazy pain & stuck episodes for 2.5 measly pounds.

9.  Unfortunately, those 2.5 lbs are taunting me.  Up and down the scale goes but so far, except for that one HORRIBLE day when I couldn't eat a thing and weighed 140 the next day, that scale will not move below 142.  I am not hung up on the number really, but that 140 magical number is my goal and why be content to stop trying this close to it???

10.  my BMI is a 26 according to my surgeon.  Am I normal and healthy yet????

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!


  1. I just found your blog... not sure your history with the stomach pain... but I had a non-functioning gallbladder that took MONTHS to diagnose. I had CATscan, ultrasound, EGD, upper GI.... everything was clear! I finally insisted on a HIDA scan which indicated my gallbladder was not functioning. Just a thought. Have you had a HIDA scan?

  2. With any particular goal any of us sets, it is always the last few pounds that are the hardest. Not necessarily because they are the hardest to get off but because you are so close yet still so far. You've seen it once, you can do it again. You will do it again. Give yourself some nice non food treats and try not to stress about it. Keep doing the right things and you will get there.

  3. Congratulations on you great progess-- I think perhaps your surgeon was saying your new stomach pouch holds xyz cc's-- because the stoma is the opening through which your food passes. That was probably what he was talking about in diameter as well.
    Though I am not a surgeon and can't be sure-- it is just my guess.
    I hope you continue to feel better at this point, and I'm sorry for all the trouble you've had to go through so far. However: the results are outstanding for certain.

  4. So glad there is no slip! Glad you are able to start feeling better too.

  5. Wow, I'm sorry you've been having these weird pains. Probably is from being a little overfilled, since you're so sensitive to anything being in your band. Now that you're unfilled are you feeling any relief? That's scary!

  6. holy mackerel that sounds annoying. I wish you luck and I totally know how you feel about those pesky 2.5 pounds. I fought them, went 4 below and am now back up a whopping 14 pound from goal..the thing is...the surgeon was happy when I hit 200. he considered that goal.

    You are just going to have to figure out what you can live with and why you want more. At some point (and boy am I at it) there is only exercise to put in to get those extra pounds..or inches off. I would think this was especially true if you don't have a lot of stoma to mess around with.

    My stoma is small too...just under 1/2. I have gotten used to that but it took a while. I hope you get on top of it all soon.

    OH by the way..congrats on keeping stuff on track when you had your unfill..that is HUGE! go you!!