Tuesday, April 17, 2012

I know I haven't posted in awhile....

Here's the deal....

I haven't posted lately b/c I have been in a yucky place. I feel horrible.

I am pretty sure I am starving. My stomach is a mess. I feel hollow and then crampy when I eat. I know I have been too tight for awhile. I got a super aggressive fill on feb. 13. Went back the next day and had 1 cc removed b/c I was in serious pain. The week that followed was touch and go...still could barely eat but it seemed to be getting better. I just stupidly hung out at this level because I was hoping to drop some pounds. I ccan only eat 1/4 to 1/3 cup of food...which limits my ability to workout. By the end of march I KNEW that I had to see the dr, and get an unfill.

The first appointment they could give me was a day I was out of town camping. The next available appointment is April 24th since the dr. Was on vacation for like 8 days. Now I am a week away but can not take it anymore! I have called in every day looking for a cancellation. I am not at the point that I am going to the ER or panic but I am trying to get in calories any way I can.

This goes against everything I am trying to do....I want to get to the point where I love my band like all of u.

I feel like my husband is annoyed that I chose the and b/c he sees how much I am struggling with being uncomfortable.

I am actually depressed about the situation.

Soooooooo, this is why I haven't posted...I am just whining and a mess.


  1. So sorry to hear things have not been going smooth for you lately...I hope things ease up and turn around for you soon..;)

  2. :) Sounds like you know what you should do, and have taken the steps! You will get it figured out.

  3. I am sorry! That sounds truly awful and my heart goes out to you. I wish your hubby could be a bit more sympathetic. :( Hang in there, and hugs!

  4. that stinks...Do your best to work with it this week and see if you can come to terms with the food level. If you can handle dropping one pro-zac give it a try too...I'm telling you at least for me the different from 0, 1 and 2 is HUGE.

    I am tight again today and...still tight. Good luck!!