I am an emotional eater...or at least I was. I am a "recovering food addict." That label fits better.
I would be soothed by putting food in my mouth. I have a LONG history of this behavior.
I remember as a kid getting a bag of Skittles to mix in Vanilla ice cream and the binge would begin. Or the time my sister and I ate an entire large bag of Doritos while looking for the "cheesiest chip."
Stressed? Eat something.
Bored? Eat something.
Sad & depressed? Eat something.
Over the last 16 months I have tried to break this cycle. I have been quite sucessful....surprising myself daily.
Since getting the band 8 months ago, I haven't been able to binge. Even if I wanted to....my band wouldn't really let me be a total glutton.
Now that I am in the "green zone," I notice that eating isn't nearly as fun, enjoyable, and relaxing as it used to be. It's just more work to eat and I can't eat the large quantities that used to make me feel temporarily good....of course followed by self-loathing and guilt.
The point is that my band does not make the food choices for me, but it does keep what ever I have chosen in check....I physically CAN NOT binge. (Happily, I haven't binged on ice cream or sliders...because we all know we can get those down easy enough!) I have wanted to binge a few times though.
Hopefully, I will continue to deal with my emotions in healthy ways and NEVER go back to food as my crutch.
Food is my addiction and something I have to deal with every day...some days are easier than others though.
Congrats on getting to the right mindset for this journey :o) that is most of this journey!
ReplyDeleteThis is my exact mindset. Glad to hear someone else has the same thought process! We're in recovery. :)
ReplyDeleteI have never been a binge-eater per se, grazing was more my downfall. But I'm not sure why having the sleeve has given me power over grazing (because let's face it I can always graze and it won't faze my sleeve!) It's so nice having some limits and controls. Congrats on being 8 months!!!
ReplyDeleteI would like to just copy and paste this to my blog!!!
ReplyDeleteJust in case I haven't mentioned it in awhile.....you rock!!
ReplyDeleteThat is so awesome. It gives me hope...I was just banded on Jan 24th, and my first fill was 2 weeks ago. I was very excited to get my first fill. I can feel some differance, and I noticed I really need to take smaller bites. I can't wait till I get to my green zone and have the same experiance as you. Thanks for posting how you feel.
ReplyDeleteDid you write this blog about me? I feel exactly the same...
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