TTT

Ten Things Thursday
1.  I ate 5 puffy cheetos....they are amazing.  80 calories worth and loved every bite. 
(Why am I feeling guilty now though???...I logged it.....I have several hundred calories left for dinner and dessert.)  Oh yeah, because I am not at goal.  Stupid me.

2.  Speaking of goal, I have 7 lbs. to go.  I can definitely see  myself getting content where I am BUT it's a goal....I can do it.............. right????  It would put me at a "healthy BMI" and that is MOST important to me

3.  Having a garage sale this weekend.  I really don't want to do it but I have a ton of random things to get rid of and want to earn some money to buy new clothes!

4.  Only a few more weeks of school left.....we are out June 14th.  Yippee! 

5.  I can do 15 boy push-ups in a row which is a huge deal for me!

6.  Bought a few new items of clothing since NOTHING fits me anymore...even the stuff I had altered / taken in.  I was continually surprised when I tried on Medium tops.........and they fit!

7.  One of my absolute fav kiddos in my class last year, swung by my room to say hi yesterday.  After chatting a bit he confessed that he wanted to say hi but really, he just needed to see me.  He'd heard from a million kids how "amazing Mrs. T looks!"  Apparently, word on the street in the high school is how I look....good to know they are discussing my weight huh???

  It was so cute b/c he made sure to say that he "always thought I was beautiful but now I look so fit and strong."  Nice compliment so I will take it.  These kids think of me as their second mom so it's cute that they want me to know how impressed they are with my efforts.

8.  I have had several colleagues tell me this week "I didn't even recognize you"  after running into them in the halls or parking lot.  I know I should take it as a compliment but really.....do I look that different?

9.  Gotta update my profile picture....I guess none of you will recognize me either!  LOL

10.  June 30th will be my one-year band-a-versary.  My fill level is good but after the 30th of June, I will have to pay* for office visits or adjustments.  (*not that I didn't already pay....it was just a lump sum cash payment for the surgery,  band, office visits, adjustments for the first year.)  Should I go see the band dr. for a check up before the 30th as a last "free" appointment?

have a good weekend !  ct

Ode to "the girls"....yep, boobies....not BOOBS

Yesterday I went bra shopping.  "My girls" have been neglected as I have lost weight.

At first, I was pretty excited that my cup size did not change as I started to lose.  (Trust me, I do not particularly want to have big boobies, but I also didn't want to have "deflated water balloon boobies" either as I got smaller.)  I was crediting the slow loss, increase of protein and muscle mass, etc.  Pats on the back for me!!!

My band size kept shrinking though!  Yipee. 

Well, now I am losing in the cup area too.  So anyhoozle, I needed to go get some new bras.

I had a NSV in midst of this outing....a frustrating one, but still a NSV.  I had a dilly of a time (no one says "dilly"anymore...why did that just pop in my head?)  trying to find 34DD.  I kept getting annoyed that all the  DD bras were 38 or 40...occasionally a 36 DD.  Can you believe that?  I couldn't find ones small enough!!!!  (How many years have I moaned and groaned because I didn't find anything while out shopping for clothes because I was too big.)  I will take this new "problem" anyday.

I did come home with a couple new bras and my "girls" are feeling supported today!

Where oh where have I been???

Hello there.  I am back.

From where you ask?

Who the heck knows!!!  I have been busy---you have too I am sure of it.  Just didn't feel like posting I guess.  Didn't have much to report.  I did keep reading your posts though.

Here's the scoop on the last few weeks:

1.  got an unfill on April 24th...had a couple weeks now to get used to it.  I think I am at perfect restriction.  I literally can eat fruit and veggies again.  Portions are between 1/2 to 1 cup for a meal.  Satiatied for about 3 hours at a time.  Having "head hunger" which is not fun but it's better than no "head hunger" and feeling miserable all of the time from being too tight.

2.  weight has bounced around.  I gained 2 lbs. back right away after getting the unfill.  I think my body just wanted to hold on to EVERY single calorie.  I was right back on track until this weekend....I was somehow involved in a lot of drinking activities over 4 days.   I am good to go today.

3.  I told my dr. when I got the unfill that "I wanted to do more of the work and the band to do less."  That may sound strange but when I was too tight I couldn't workout hard, I hated eating because I knew pain would follow, my stomach was a mess,  I was tired,  etc.  He did understand that and said he regretted getting me too tight in the first place.  Well, I certainly got my request.  I do feel like I have to do the work but am getting a little help from my band.  I have been hitting the gym hard and trying to eat lots of veg and protein.

4.  People at work keep saying that I just get "skinnier and skinnier every time they see me."  I haven't lost in a few weeks but I will take the compliments.

5.  147 lbs.  Just 7 lbs to goal.  One day at a time.

Hope all is well with you!

Oh my goodness...I feel horrible

Ok people...I have made it through 8 weeks being too tight.

I know I have said this before, but I just wanted the band to help me with portion control and satiation. I feel like the last 8 weeks has taught me everything I DON'T WANT WITH THE BAND. I am skipping meals, eating sliders just to get in some calories, drinking calories, passing up fruit and veggies because they are too dense....none of this is what I was planning on when I got my first big fill back on feb. 13th.

I FINALLY get to see the dr. Tomorrow and I am just dying here. I am on day 2 of acid reflux, can 't eat more than a bite...tummy pains not my band...just below my belly button...and I keep burping.

I have only eaten a protein drink, 1/2 protein bar, and 1 bite of turkey chili. What is going on? ( stopped w/ the chili b/ c I was worried it would make the heartburn worse).

I am miserable.

Friday Weigh in

Yippe!  A new low....147.

Down a total of 58 pounds.

7 to go!!!

I know I haven't posted in awhile....

Here's the deal....

I haven't posted lately b/c I have been in a yucky place. I feel horrible.

I am pretty sure I am starving. My stomach is a mess. I feel hollow and then crampy when I eat. I know I have been too tight for awhile. I got a super aggressive fill on feb. 13. Went back the next day and had 1 cc removed b/c I was in serious pain. The week that followed was touch and go...still could barely eat but it seemed to be getting better. I just stupidly hung out at this level because I was hoping to drop some pounds. I ccan only eat 1/4 to 1/3 cup of food...which limits my ability to workout. By the end of march I KNEW that I had to see the dr, and get an unfill.

The first appointment they could give me was a day I was out of town camping. The next available appointment is April 24th since the dr. Was on vacation for like 8 days. Now I am a week away but can not take it anymore! I have called in every day looking for a cancellation. I am not at the point that I am going to the ER or panic but I am trying to get in calories any way I can.

This goes against everything I am trying to do....I want to get to the point where I love my band like all of u.

I feel like my husband is annoyed that I chose the and b/c he sees how much I am struggling with being uncomfortable.

I am actually depressed about the situation.


Soooooooo, this is why I haven't posted...I am just whining and a mess.

Ten Things Thursday...thanks LB

1.  I couldn't be any happier on this particularly Thursday....yep, the day before Spring Break.  One more lesson left to teach before having vacation.  (My teens thought we should just blow off today and tomorrow since "it's so close to Spring Break."    Hilarious aren't they??)

2.  I mentally CAN NOT take the idea of having to write another letter of recommendation.  I made it through all the college apps and now it's scholarship apps.  I love my teens but WHY OH WHY do I have a hard time telling them "NO---sorry,  I am overwhelmed with the amount of regular work I am behind on???"  oh yeah, that's right, it's because i care about their future success.  Ugh.

3.  I think I am going to play BINGO tonight....it will be me and the blue-hairs. 

Not really, meeting a friend  there but still undecided b/c I am behind on grading.  Yuck. Boring!!  Hubby says to go...the grading will get done over vacation.

4.  I am wondering why I don't EVER put any pictures of myself on my blog??  I have always been a bit unhappy with what pictures of me look like, but I have lost 57 pounds...how bad can a new pix be? 

5.  I tried a new snack this week.  It certainly isn't for everyone but it's the "Snackable" by Oscar Meyer.  It is marketed for toddlers.  Now I know you are thinking "it's crap."  Well not really.  I tried the Turkey, Mozzarella, and baby Ritz crackers.  140 calories.  I thought it was a great mini-meal at work.  The meat is diced into tiny pieces...perfect for my band!  I bought them to try b/c they were on sale $1 for a 2 pack.  At .50 a snack, I couldn't complain.  Cheaper than a protein bar and gave me some variety.  did I mention how CONVENIENT it was???  I couldn't find a picture to post though.

6.  I hit a new low today....148.8 oh yeeeeeaaaaaaahhhhhh....whooops.  Hope I don't jinx with my celebration  because my weigh-in is technically tomorrow.

7.  Went to support group last night......all 2 of us were there!   (We did meet a lady who is considering Lap Band.  She was very nice.)  This is why I need all of you and your blogs!!  I may not be the best "comment giver" but I faithfully read all of your blogs EVERY DAY....even when I am super busy.  It's my down-time once I get home.

8.  I received a boatload of compliments this week at work.  My colleague told me today "whatever workout routine you are doing had better stop because you are going to disappear."  I just laughed at him.   I am not a twig....but I am getting pretty fit!

9.  A group of 20 of my former students (period 3 from last school year) threw me a "surprise party" the other day at lunch.  They showed up with a cake just because they missed me!  (See this is why I get sucked into writing all those letters of rec!!!  Most teens are just awesome!)

10.  Skipped working out today.....I  know it's healthy to take a day of rest every once in awhile but I feel guilty.

Have a good FRIDAY!!  I know I will.