tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58369433429067469992024-03-04T22:36:40.432-08:00O.C. BandsterMy band and I have a "love-hate" kind of relationship.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.comBlogger125125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-46824252882245672592013-11-26T16:05:00.000-08:002013-11-26T16:05:00.677-08:00Well looky who just showed up?IF anyone is still checking in on me, I am a mess. Literally...down in the dumps, gaining weight, and no solution in sight.<br />
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It has been 6 months since my lap-band was removed and I am fighting like hell against weight gain. Every day the scales stays the same or goes up...it is not mathematically possible. I know it's hard to believe a food addict, but i really am sticking to the plan. I still work out 6-7 days per week (with approximately a 400 calorie burn) and eat around 1400-1600 calories. Shouldn't something be happening??<br />
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To add to this, I went to see the surgeon who removed my lap-band to talk about the gastric sleeve and he had ABSOLUTELY nothing positive to say. He just said why don't I stop worrying about counting calories and just eat intuitively. He has <span style="font-size: large;">NO IDEA</span> about the issues of a food addict. <br />
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I have been researching "self-pay" options for the sleeve but I have been told it will be about $20,000. There is NO way that my family can swing financing that. I have even looked into going to Mexico but I don't think I am ready for that-- a little scary to me.<br />
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Ugh. Any advice or words of wisdom would be appreciated.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-37853693770600775802013-07-13T06:00:00.000-07:002013-07-13T06:00:04.222-07:00AvoidanceI have been avoiding all of you.<br />
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You (all my blogging ladies) have been helping me stay accountable for 2 years. <br />
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Not any longer. I have avoided posting because I don't know what to do....I don't know what to say. I'm not even sure if I should have this blog any longer...I'm not banded.<br />
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I am actually jealous of you...yes you. I want my lap band back....and I can't....and I need help with my eating.<br />
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Sooooo, I am having a hard time commenting on your posts because I am happy for your continued sucess but sad for me.<br />
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I really feel like I spend all this money, worked super hard to lose weight, and now I feel it slipping away. <br />
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I am sad, lost, and confused. o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-88070002535584368182013-07-12T15:09:00.000-07:002013-07-12T15:09:07.577-07:00It's like the dreaded "Freshmen 15"What do I mean by that title?<br />
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Hmmm. Well, having my band removed sure eliminated my immediate medical issues but it has opened up a whole new batch of different issues. Mainly eating.<br />
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I went a little crazy once I could start eating real food again. You know, just like the kid that goes off to college and goes a little overboard with pizza, beer, dorm food, and crap eating b/c they are finally on their own? (I didn't go off to college at age 42 but remember I wasn't able to eat really anything for 20+ days before removal but have had band difficulties since the beginning.) Ok. A little crazy we can deal with...but then that turned into a road trip to Vegas with some serious alcohol....and cookies...and puffy Cheetos, etc. I worked out each day of the trip for 1.5 to 2 hours but my body held on to every single calorie!<br />
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Then I was back on track for a few weeks but then off to Laughlin and repeated the steps above <br />
with food and liquor.<br />
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Mixed in with all of this stupid eating behavior, I have been mourning the loss of my band....hence my feelings of not having ANY control over my eating....hating my surgeon- who I blame for giving me such a tiny pouch and not knowing that it was extra tiny & would cause me to vomit if I had more than 2 TBSP of food ...... feeling sorry for myself......scared.....and yes, gaining weight. I haven't actually gained "the freshie 15" but I have gained 8 lbs from the weight I had previously maintained for a year. <br />
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I was in tears this morning because every day the scale seems to go up just a bit. All of those .1 and .2 changes are adding up. I am using MFP and logging in my food. I am exercising the same as always. <br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: lime;">I am freaking out. <span style="color: black;">Please advise.</span></span></span><br />
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<br />o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-14725130556650733572013-05-10T15:12:00.002-07:002013-05-10T15:12:36.903-07:00Triple T!Hello all,<br />
I am ready for another installment of <span style="color: red;"><span style="font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Ten Things Thursday</span></span></span>...hope you are too!<br />
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1. Feeling really depressed lately. I feel out of control when it comes to food. I am trying to track my food on MFP in hopes of taking back the control but usually stop putting things in by 4pm. It's a form of denial.<br />
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2. This weekend is the Wine Country Half Marathon...I am missing out on participating because of my surgery to remove the band. Talk about a double whammy! Bummer.<br />
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3. I had a meltdown of EPIC PROPORTIONS last night. I have been really depressed for the last week...it's all related to my band removal. I feel loss, anger at my dr. and life, frustrated that I spent all of the money and the band failed me, fear that I will gain all the weight back. <br />
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My husband was sooooooo supportive. He said so many great things BUT he does not understand the idea of binge eating. He doesn't get the "compulsiveness" of it.<br />
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4. I binged last night. Yes that is what sent me over the edge into hysteria. I ate 3 whole zucchini's (see picture from the recipe below) along with 3 oz of baked chicken. I know, at least it wasn't a pint of ice cream but WHO DOES THAT????? Zucchini??? This is the concern....it's not logical. This is the compulsiveness....I just kept going back for more. Picking at it. WHY??? It scared me right down to more core. All of the hard work I have done over the last two years seemed to disappear and I felt exactly how I have felt me entire life (before the band) ............I felt powerless around food. <br />
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5. I am trying lots of different home workouts available on YouT*be. I am really interested in the Tracy And*rs*n ones....seems like it might be a good supplement to working the large muscle groups at the gym. Anyone done these??? (I'm not doing the post preggo workout but it's still her in the picture :0) <br />
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6. Next week I am going to see the surgeon who removed my band. He's not the dr. who placed it, but I felt like he was very straight forward with me. I put off my follow up appointment (as part of my denial) because I want to talk about the vertical sleeve but I don't think I will like what he has to say.<br />
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7. I am hooked on "pop corners" snacks. I just love them!!!<br />
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8. This month is the LONGEST ever!!! I just have to make it until June....then I can count down the days until summer vacation. (AS much as I enjoy my job, I really despise the month of May.)<br />
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9. Going to get a mani/pedi on Sunday for Mother's Day. <br />
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10. Finally going to watch the "Amazing Race" finale tonight with all the neighbors. Give me the strength not to overeat.<br />
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<br />o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-68568177791941340482013-05-05T21:17:00.000-07:002013-05-05T21:17:16.148-07:00The end of the weekendIts the end of another weekend. who ever wants to go to work on mondays? not me. maybe my really random things to share will take your mind off of it being a Monday:<br />
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1. I seemed to have adopted the term "shitastic" into my vocabulary thanks to <a href="http://beerdogsandhealth.blogspot.com/">Laura belle</a><br />
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2. Watched about 5 episodes of "Lock Up" marathon wondering if Rambo<a href="http://www.justmedrazilandsheniqua.com/">(Drazil's man)</a> deals with these kinds of people.<br />
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3. I was singing to Wham on the radio.....at the top of my lungs mind you.....just yesterday. 1982 is wondering what is wrong with me. Can't blame that on any of you bloggers!<br />
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4. I am actually missing my run/walk workouts. (Did I really just type that?) i went back to exercising this week but just walking at 3.5 mph. Tried elliptical & light weights yesterday at the gym..still feel a little pull at the former port site but its only been 2.5 weeks. I really need to get my sweat on...I hate running but I love the feeling when I am done...clear headed. <a href="http://www.runsforcookies.com/p/running.html">Slim Katie</a> talks about this.<br />
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5. Still trying to follow all of the "band" rules even though I could just eat and eat and eat. I definitely notice my hunger levels are crazy....no fullness at all....ability to eat anything and everything. Fortunately, my weight is hanging in around 141 - 143. My goal weight is 145.<br />
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Hope your week starts off great.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-29970988339426276592013-04-25T18:11:00.000-07:002013-04-25T18:11:14.651-07:00I have got an announcementUnfortunately, due to all of the problems I have been having with my band, it became medically necessary to have my band removed.<br />
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Many of you followed along with my tales of woe...the days of not eating, excessive vomiting of water, unrelenting pain, total unfills, chills and shakes, complete tightness in spite of being unfilled..etc. you have listened to it all.<br />
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Unfortunately the incident that began on march 28 th and has continued for 20 days has now been resolved. I took your advice and got a second opinion. On Tuesday 4/16 I went to my GP explained my situation and asked for a referral,to a GI. He was happy to do so b/c he wanted me to have an endoscopy and CAT scan. Before I got the referrals, the following day I was in so much pain that my doctor sent me to the ER. Based on the CT scan there, I found out I had a slipped band and part of my stomach was crimped up.<br />
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Transferred to another hospital so they could take the band out <span style="font-size: large;">immediately. </span><br />
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It has been a week now....I am healing up fine and dandy....but I am sad, fearful, disappointed, and confused. <br />
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Where do I go from here? I worked so hard for 2 years to lose the weight and work this body into a fit one. Will it all slip through my fingers?<br />
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I am eating real food again....super hungry ALL THE TIME....feeling a little reckless because I can eat tortilla chips ... what now?<br />
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Words of encouragement or advice would be much appreciated.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-45576527445180340112013-04-11T16:35:00.000-07:002013-04-11T16:35:07.585-07:00It's official....I hate my band.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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You know the saying: "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"---well, that's why you haven't heard from me in months. My band is out to get me....I am sure of it now. <b>Here's my tale of woe.</b><br />
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You may remember that I have been all over the place with fills and un-fills since I got the band almost 2 years ago. I got a complete unfill last June (2012) and have moved up to 2cc in September 2012. Should be fine right???<br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: red;">WRONG.</span></b></span><br />
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My band and/or tummy are just not happy with each other. I have found that I have a SUPER DUPER small pouch (24 cc). A year ago my dr. said that "was a bit on the small size but no big deal." (I wanted to say to the dr: Uh....maybe that is why my band is so sensitive to .1cc fill.......ya think???)<br />
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After several very strange band events the last two months, resulting in throwing up 10-15 times in one day...not being able to hold even water down, sleeping for 12-14 hours to try and reduce swelling, etc. I know it's not "food poisoning"--which is what the support group leader suggested. <span style="color: blue;"> I know it's my band.</span><br />
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On the 28th of March I had a little issue with dinner...not stuck but some excessive burping through the evening. Had a hard time eating the next day, so mostly did mushies. (Was going through some serious stress at the same time....student confided she is pregnant. oh boy...now what?) Saturday was the same...lots of tightness...eating very little. Sunday morning......repeat. By Monday, April 1st, I was very unhappy--couldn't keep water down....bad pain, woke up two nights in a row with reflux. I went to dr. on 4/2 in tears and got a complete unfill.<br />
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Dr. looks in my chart and note that I had an upper GI last June and an abdominal ultrasound and everything with the band looks great. No slips. He comments again that my pouch is tiny.....this time he mentions that most pouches are between 30-40 cc.....I am 24cc....half of what some "normal" pouches measure. Hello! Why is my pouch so small in the first place??? Is this why my body is soooooooo sensitive to fills, hormones, food, stress, the moon being in the 3rd phase?? <br />
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Unfortunately, even though I got an unfill, I still couldn't even get broth down for several days. By FRIDAY 4/5, I have essentially gone through an entire week not eating and barely drinking---each sip brought nerve pain in my back and tons of burps. Called dr. office and was advised to continue with clear liquids through the weekend. Come in on Monday if still a problem. <br />
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At this point I am worried that I will get dehydrated, mad at myself because I MUST have done something to cause this, wondering what is "really wrong with my band," etc. Why did I choose "lap band?" What do I do if something is wrong and I have to pay to get it removed? How come I hadn't heard of the verticle sleeve back then??<br />
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Bottom line, I am still on liquids and mushies. Eating maybe 1/4 cup of food 3 times a day. I hope that things work out and I am able to eat solids again some day.<br />
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Ugh!!! I am so jealous of those of you who love their bands.<br />
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Believe it or not.....miracles do happen.<br />
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I took the kids to swim practice on a cold, windy day. This is a rarity in So.Cal but it was a VERY cold day. I was planning to do a little walk/jog/walk while they swam. I had clocked on my odometer how far point A would be from point B (the pool.)<br />
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Well.........I set off to get in my exercise thinking I would walk a few minutes first and then try and do a bit of running. I didn't even get out of the parking lot at a WALK.....it was sooooo damn cold.......I had to start running right away.<br />
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I kept running. I wanted to stop but I also wanted to see if I could make it all the way to the "turn around spot" without stopping. <br />
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I hate running.<br />
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My ipod battery died after 3 songs.....ugh!!!! BUT I still kept running.<br />
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I got to the "turn around spot" and decided to see how long I could go on the return trip without resorting to slowing to a walk.<br />
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I made it the whole way. 32 continuous minutes. (Now the whole route was only 2.5 miles BUT I HATE running and have NEVER EVER run for more than 5 minutes in a stretch on the treadmill so this was a big deal!)<br />
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IT'S A MIRACLE!!!! Ok, maybe I am overstating a bit but this was amazing to me because <span style="font-size: large;">I. HATE. RUNNING.</span><br />
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Maybe running 7 of the 13.1 miles I am signed up to do in May won't be all that bad.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-90099220048536298472013-01-09T19:37:00.001-08:002013-01-09T19:37:47.886-08:00Ten Things ThursdayI don't know who will start TTT this week but since I have a few minutes to spare, I am gonna get a jump on it!<br />
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1. I have been away from my blog for <span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: blue;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">way too long!</span> </span></span><br />
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I have been reading yours though...commenting occasionally...kind of lurking.<br />
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I think this may be avoidance. <br />
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2. I am struggling. My weight is fluctuating. I feel out of control.<br />
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3. My band has been doing all kinds of weird things. I still only have 2.25cc or 2.5cc (I actually can't remember!) and normally have NO restriction AT ALL. Flew to the east coast over the holidays and spent quite a few of the days not being able to eat ANYTHING. I was all over the place with crazy restriction. Why would that be??<br />
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4. Did I mention that I am struggling? It's freaking me out. I am so afraid that the couple pounds of regain are going to turn into 10...then 15 etc. I keep trying to get back on track but the weight doesn't budge.<br />
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5. I want to get a fill so I feel back in control of my eating but after the craziness of last week and being too tight.....I am TOTALLY afraid.<br />
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6. Going "back to basics" with my band. No more pushing the limits to see if I can eat bread. Got my stop- watch out again to slow me down. Measuring everything. (If I can't get a fill, I better use the "rules" in order to get back in control.)<br />
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7. My New Year's Resolutions are to spend less $ and get more done! I have replaced my wardrobe with all size 8 items.......so I don't NEED to shop....I just love it. No more for awhile.<br />
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I also want to get more done around my house. Work in the yard, try and replace my eating compulsion with cleaning and organizing.<br />
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8. I have made a goal to lose 5 pounds by April 15th. I will do this by using MFP, working out, and blogging my honest emotions.<br />
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9. I am really having an urge to get a puppy.....seeing <a href="http://www.blogger.com/">Robyn's</a> little Hugo just kills me. I won't get a dog...no time for the extra responsibility...but darn it....I think I secretly wished I would have had 3 kids instead of 2 and think a puppy will help. Pipe dream!<br />
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10. I am running a half-marathon over Mother's Day weekend. I hate to run. <br />
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Remind me.........why did I sign up????<br />
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See ya!o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-85291925050232653372013-01-09T12:55:00.001-08:002013-01-09T12:55:40.864-08:00What I love about meAs Amy suggested on her <a href="http://cheeseandsunkist.blogspot.com/">blog</a>, I am going to write a list of a few things I love about me. This is actually quite challenging....I don't really think about this topic much.<br />
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1. I love my CALVES. Yes, I said it!!! I have great claves....muscular & defined but not big. They look good while wearing heals or rocking the elliptical machine. (I know b/c I was checking myself out yesterday on the elliptical.)<br />
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2. I am happy. 99% of the time I am happy and everyone knows it. My students think I drink tons of coffee...but I am just a naturally positive kind of gal.<br />
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3. I am a good wife, mom, & teacher. I take all 3 of my "jobs" seriously.....and I am gonna be successfull at them!<br />
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4. I have a great work ethic. <br />
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5. I am a good friend.<br />
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6. I am funny. (I crack myself up all the time)<br />
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7. I am strong and independent.<br />
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The list of things I don't like might be just as long.......uh oh!<br />
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Have a good day!<br />
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o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-32528788015881717482012-10-04T20:09:00.004-07:002012-10-04T20:09:57.887-07:0010 Things ThursdayHappy Thursday!<br />
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Wow! What a crazy week. I didn't intend for THURSDAY to be the only day I post something but.......<br />
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1. Being back at work has shown me that stress is one of my food triggers. All I want to do these days is <b><span style="font-size: x-large;">munch</span></b>. I find myself trying to replace my food obsession with other things. Diet coke ...I buy a huge one at Circle K a couple times a week to drink at work. Dove Promises...damn those tasty little treats. On-line shopping.....I browse (not while at work!) an awful lot but usually don't actually place the order. <br />
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Why can't I become obsessed with cleaning? Or gardening?<br />
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2. I am really struggling with my weight...trying to keep it from creeping up. I definitely need more fluid in my band if I want to lose that last 5-10 lbs but I just got a fill. Maybe getting the band up to 2.75 cc will help.<br />
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3. I planted some lovely plants in our front yard this weekend...in the 100 degree heat. It's kind of funny how happy those little plants make me when I walk by them. I have NEVER been interested in the yard before but who knows where this will lead.<br />
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4. I still <strike>hate </strike>dislike running, BUT one minute sprints are still in my workout. Unfortunately, they have not become more enjoyable.<br />
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5. Everyone talks about running a half-marathon or doing a sprint triathalon.......Why can't I find a Zumba-thon? Like a 5 hour deal? (I actually looked on-line for one! I found a 2 hour class but it's an hour away from where I live.)<br />
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7. I ordered two new shirts for Zumba...I am sprucing up my workout wear! Unfortunately, I ordered Large and they are SKIN TIGHT. Nice for the ol' ego huh?? Hopefully, I can exchange them for larger sizes.<br />
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8. I am currently obsessed with flavoring my greek yogurt. Add some SF instant pudding mix, a little skim milk, 2 squirts SF Torani or some splenda and I am good to go!! <br />
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My fav combinations lately are Pistachio pudding w/ toasted pistachios on top, Butterscotch pudding with SF caramel Torani and cut up banana--maybe a few walnuts too, Lemon pudding with blueberries or strawberries, or Cheesecake pudding with fruit or a few chocolate chips. Yum--o<br />
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9. I think I might have gotten the "full" signal at dinner tonight. (it's also TOM so that could be it but I am hoping it's just my band doing it's job.) I know that sounds strange since I have been banded for 15 months BUT my experience with the band has been soooooooooo hit or miss. No restriction or too much restriction. I have NEVER been in the green zone. <br />
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10. Looking forward to spending some time with the family this weekend. I am sure you are too!!!<br />
Big Hugs!!!<br />
<br />o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-14347560663618082832012-10-04T13:41:00.001-07:002012-10-04T13:41:06.927-07:00Weigh in Wednesday Struggling like crazy. Really want to get another fill.<br />
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Highest weight: 205<br />
Pre surgery weight: 180<br />
Goal weight :140-142<br />
Current weight: 145.2o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-34132445123479396442012-09-27T15:48:00.000-07:002012-09-27T15:48:32.269-07:00Triple TIts Thursday people...one day until Friday!<br />
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1. Went and got a small fill this week ( for those of you keeping score at home I am now at 2.25 cc in a 10 cc band) and even though I don't know if it gave me any restriction or not it definitely helped me get my head back in the game. I am focused....chewing like its my job...measuring....logging food and kicking hiney at the gym. Just getting on the scale at the dr office was enough to get me going!<br />
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2. Ordered two new workout shirts last night. This is one of them.<br />
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3. I am sooooo bummed not to be at BOOBS. would love to meet all of you some day.<br />
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4. Kiddos are going to grammy's house for the weekend so hubby & I can have an anniversary redo. I have NO IDEA what we are going to do with all that <strike>freedom</strike> ...I mean free time.<br />
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5. Getting into the rhythm of work...back for a month & the routine is rolling along. I think I won over my first period today....they have gone from tolerating me @ 7am to actually enjoying me & my crazy teaching activities at 7 am.<br />
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6. NSV today. Pizza brought in to teachers lounge for lunch...I am talking a truckload of pizza. I wavered...picked up the phone and called a friend for reinforcement. I really did not want any pizza...I brought a perfectly wonderful steak salad for lunch.....BUT. The idea of free pizza was really tempting me. I could have had a slice but I am choosing to have two glasses of wine tonight instead. Choices.<br />
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7. Yesterday I had the day off from work and instead of sleeping in (like I wanted to) I still got up at 5 am to go to the gym (like I needed) and was home before the kids left for school. It may be the only day all year that my daughter had cute hair. Daddy just doesn't make her hairstyles a priority. I love him anyway.<br />
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8. Last weekend I got to spend 8 hours with one of my very best friends. I had a blast catching up with her. I think we talked non- stop the entire time!<br />
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9. Kiddos are in their second week of swim team. Man is it a lot of work! For them.....not me....I am watching them swim. (Actually, on Monday I was working out while watching them swim. I brought my exercise bands and yoga mat and just worked out on the pool deck. I REALLY DID NOT CARE IF THE OTHER MOMS THOUGHT THAT WAS WEIRD OR NOT!) <br />
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10. I am making brownies tonight since it's my turn to host " neighborhood night.". EVERY SINGLE BROWNIE must leave the premises with the guests or there will be hell to pay.<br />
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hoping your weekend gets off to a great start. o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-7107300282106244922012-09-26T14:28:00.001-07:002012-09-26T14:28:17.156-07:00Weigh-In Wednesday<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Hello to all. It is that <strike>dreaded</strike> day of the week where in order to hold me accountable, I weigh in PUBLICLY!! <br />
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Highest weight: 205<br />
Weight on day of surgery: 180<br />
Goal weight: 140-142<br />
"Freak-out Weight": 145<br />
Weight today: 146<br />
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A GAIN???? Does anyone see an upward trend?? Hands up.....(I am holding both of my hands in the air)<br />
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So what is a girl to do???<br />
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1. Get back on track with measuring food portions. Since I haven't really had any fluid in my band since June, I know I can eat WAY TOO MUCH food. Plus I am hungry every two hours. YUCK.<br />
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2. Call and make a fill appointment. (done) Went to dr. yesterday and got .75 cc fill which brings me to about 2.25cc total. This is actually lower than last September when I was trying to find my green zone....here we are a year later and I am still looking for it!! That's ok though, I have all the time in the world to be back down to 140. <br />
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3. Kick up my exercise. I have been keeping up with my workouts but the quality of them has decreased. I don't have that much time now that school has started so every workout minute needs to count!<br />
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Maintenance is a lot more difficult than I thought it would be.<br />
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<br />o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-9257605195268717782012-09-05T14:00:00.000-07:002012-09-05T14:00:18.267-07:00Wednesday Weigh -in<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.cartoonstock.com/lowres/jfa0376l.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://www.cartoonstock.com/lowres/jfa0376l.jpg" width="268" /></a></div>Second week of posting my weigh-in....it's actually hard for me to do. (Posting it....not getting on the scale.) I feel self-conscious...like everyone knows if I ate healthy or not...which is the point ? right?<br />
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Highest weight: 205<br />
Weight on day of surgery: 180<br />
Goal weight: 140-142<br />
Last week: 144<br />
Weight today: 145<br />
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A GAIN???? That's not what I was going for. Maintenance is tricky. <br />
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I weighed in 4days in a row at 145.0...whenever my weight is EXACTLY the same, I know I am not eating enough. I added in an extra 140 calories to my daily budget to see if that would break the cycle. It did...weighed in at 144.4 & 144.6 the last two days. Now I am starting to wonder IF maybe I don't need those extra calories?? I really don't want to gain. I will start to cut back on some of my exercise since I go back to work tomorrow.<br />
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I guess I will have to see what happens over the next few days and re-evaluate.<br />
Happy Wednesday.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-66084180789724836212012-08-30T15:33:00.002-07:002012-08-30T15:33:00.612-07:00Ten Things Thursday1. Rough night....little one has an ear infection...got up several times with her. After the last time, I couldn't fall back asleep and eventually got up for the day at 4:20am.<br />
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2. What would you do if you were awake at 4:20 am, still on summer break and don't have to get up??? Read a book? Clean something? I went to the gym and did 85 mins. of cardio BEFORE I had my Pilates Reformer class @ 7:15am.<br />
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3. Does anyone else get tight when it's hot? (Or you are in the middle of your cycle? Or the moon is in the third phase? Or it's a day of the week that ends in the letter "y?") silly question!<br />
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4. Let me remind you....I have 1.5cc in a 10 cc band. I have been stuck the last two days on the weirdest things. How is it possible though....there isn't anything in my band!!!!!<br />
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Today it happened again....on cornbread mind you. Now...I know....bread is in the word "corn bread" and I avoid bread BUT cornbread is the consistency of cake. I don't avoid cake. I don't get stuck on cake. Anyhoo, I threw up four times over the course of 3 hours b/c the cornbread was just sitting there. Please refer back to #3 if you have insight.<br />
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5. Spent 11 hours working in my classroom the last two days. School starts for me on the 6th. Still have things to do to get ready!!<br />
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6. Today we got a patio. Yes, a patio.<br />
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We have been renovating the backyard and the crew came yesterday to prep for paving stones. Today they laid the whole patio and it looks great!!!! I have waited 12 years for a new patio and yard so I am pretty excited. Pix to follow.<br />
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7. Bought the cutest cropped / cuffed jeans at Kohl's for $9 and they were size 6!!! Yes people....a 6! This is the second size 6 I have bought. My goal is to be consistently a size 8 and I have been since June, but getting a 6 in there once in awhile is good for the ego.<br />
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8. Today is "neighbor night." Yep. A get together with neighbors. During the school year we do "neighbor night" on Sundays. We have dinner and watch "Survivor" and the "Amazing Race." We have done this for 12 years!!! The tradition started the summer that Survivor premiered and we had such a good time hanging out, it stuck. Since our shows are in hiatus over the summer, we get together and swim instead. (Survivor starts at the end of September and we will be back to Sundays.)<br />
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9. It's hot. I wish we had air conditioning.<br />
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10. I have a "date" this weekend with my son (aka Monkey #1). We are going to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner and then we are going to watch the first Harry Potter movie together per his request. We have read the first 4 books in the series and he thinks he is ready to try the first movie. (yes, he is a scaredy cat...doesn't like anything dark or scary in movies. I am exactly the same. I read all kinds of scary books, serial killers, true crime, etc. BUT can't watch any of it on DVD. Weird huh.)<br />
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Have a good day! o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-55073835162073311732012-08-29T19:28:00.000-07:002012-08-29T19:28:26.002-07:00Weigh In Wednesday<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://utahsweetsavings.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/06/Weight-loss-Cartoon-Scale.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://utahsweetsavings.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/06/Weight-loss-Cartoon-Scale.gif" /></a></div>I normally DO NOT post my weigh-ins on my blog. <br />
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I do weigh myself everyday though. (Yes, call me all the names you can think of...scale whore, etc.)<br />
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I think that since I am doing maintenance (kinda sorta) I could use all the support I can get from you wonderful people!<br />
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Highest weight: 205<br />
Weight on day of surgery: 180<br />
Goal weight: 140-142<br />
Last week: ??? I don't know...I think 143 <br />
Weight today: 144<br />
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Gotta track my food a little more carefully and get near that 142 again.<br />
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o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com28tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-2898703901070829272012-08-26T13:53:00.000-07:002012-08-26T13:53:23.229-07:00My "Go*dwill" Hunt!Hello to all of you!<br />
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Today I headed out to G*odwill in search of a jacket. Today was the LAST DAY of my 25% off coupon before it expired. (Forgive the no make-up shots....it's hot!) Here's what I got:<br />
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o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-67554157145761378372012-08-02T16:00:00.000-07:002012-08-02T16:00:42.780-07:0010 things THURSDAYIt's Thursday already????? Where did the week go?<br />
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I have had so much going on that I haven't read,commented, or posted this week. I am out of town now & hope to have some downtime to catch up with what has been going on.<br />
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1. Out of town for the next few days for my SIL wedding<br />
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2. Brought my workout wear & am going to get in a workout fri, sat, & Sunday.<br />
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3. Today is my 15th wedding anniversary! I am the same size (not weight) that I was at 26 after 8 months on phen-fen...the wonder diet pill of the 90s.<br />
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4. I tried Pilates on the reformer last night for the first time. Gotta love Plum District for the deal. I hav3 10 more sessions.<br />
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5. I am not giving up...let me repeat....NOT ..giving up on my goal of another five pound loss.<br />
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6. I keep bouncing back and forth on my weight....really my body thinks I am in maintenance. I dont get it because I am journalling my food.<br />
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7. My ass is seriously getting tight! Yes, I did just give myself a compliment! I have been working out soooooooooo hard with the weights and I can tell it is working..I feel strong.<br />
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8. I get to see my BIL and family from the east coast tomorrow and I am soooooo excited. They are here for the same wedding.<br />
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9. Can't wait to get my groove on at the reception with my hubby....apparently that will be our anniversary celebration this year.<br />
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10. I still have 1.5 cc in my band & it's still scary but I am trying to deal with it. Eating at cup of foodor more is still worrisome for me but it hasn't lead to a binge yet. I have had to resort to gum chewing again to help with the head hunger.<br />
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Hope all is well in your world.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-77830594113735448292012-07-26T20:21:00.000-07:002012-07-26T20:21:55.690-07:00TTTIt's triple T baby! (I am channeling my inner Guy Fieri...you know..."Drive-Ins, Diners, & Dives." Anyone? anyone? Bueller? Tap Tap...is this thing on????) Thank you <a href="http://beerdogsandhealth.blogspot.com/">Laura Belle</a> for our Ten Things Thursday.<br />
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1. Started my day with my husband harassing me when I went to get on the scale. He says "whoa babe, living life on the edge huh?" <br />
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I was getting on the scale fully clothed!!! (it was funny but what a wise ass!)<br />
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2. I made sugar cookies with the monkeys today. Monkey #2 has been begging to do decorate cookies since school got out....mommy kept postponing. Ugh! Doesn't she know that cookie dough is my kryptonite???<br />
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3. Had a full on "graze-a-thon" yesterday. Just kept snacking. So mad at myself! I did try and get things back in check today....until.....we made.....some cookies (above) .....i have had 3. Damn I don't want to go journal those things in MFP right now.<br />
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4. going to the beach tomorrow with several other "kindergarten" families. Monkey #2 is sooooooo excited to see her school friends.<br />
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5. did some walk/run intervals this morning. I hate running but I can do it a minute at a time. <br />
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6. bought two pairs of shoes today...you will be voting on them, and the dress I think they go with, in the next few days.<br />
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7. gonna get my sweat on tomorrow morning at ZUMBA with my favorite instructor. I am also going to the gym 40 mins. before class to get my leg workout in.<br />
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8. hoping my weight will magically get back to 142 because I am starting to see an upward trend on the scale and me no likey!<br />
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9. One of the benefits of having virtually no fluid in my band is I can enjoy diet soda with out any problems. The down side is I have to limit my intake or I don't drink enough plain water. (Lap Band Gal reminded us of the issues of too much citric acid in ..... <a href="http://lapbandgalsjourney.blogspot.com/2012/06/are-you-bulimic.html">LBG: are you bulimic?</a> ) On my graze-a-thon yesterday I drank an entire 2 liter bottle of diet coke. yikes.<br />
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10. I am looking forward to going to a "symphony" in the park this weekend. Not usually my type of music, I can apprecite it, plus it's only once a year. It also helps offset the other 364 days of listening to the junk food of music like Katy Perry, Pink, Bruno Mars, etc.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-77766017956616358682012-07-24T23:13:00.000-07:002012-07-24T23:13:17.821-07:00Do you ever ......?<b>Do you ever wonder if your clothes won't fit even though they fit yesterday?</b><br />
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I do. I sometimes <strike>worry</strike>, <strike>stress</strike> ....freak my self out...that overnight I gained back all 60+ pounds.<br />
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<b>Do you ever find yourself watching a "diet" infomercial or reading an ad for some "magic diet pill" and seriously considering it?</b><br />
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I do. I forget that I am close to my goal weight. I still have those moments when I feel desperate to take charge of my weight. Then I realize, I don't need that infomerical/ pill....I am working my band.<br />
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<b>Do you ever feel like you look fit only to see yourself in a different mirror and think....is that what I really look like?</b><br />
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I do. Sometimes the mirror shows a different body than I feel like I have. Which image is "real?"<br />
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<b>Do you ever force yourself to go to bed because that is the only way to make sure you don't eat anything else for the day?</b><br />
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I do. I am going to bed right now for that exact reason.<br />
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I know I have come a long way in the last 20 months dealing with the mental component of food addiction......the negative self talk, the compulsiveness, the thoughts about food.........but I still have <b>so far to go.</b> One day at a time.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-40285137444786024072012-07-23T14:59:00.000-07:002012-07-23T14:59:09.767-07:00Palm Springs, CA<table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
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</tbody></table> We just got back from a little vacation. We stayed at the Westin Villas (above) and had a blast. For those of you unfamiliar with Palm Springs, it is H-O-T in the summer. That's why we go...it's cheaper to stay in the HOT months...plus, it's close & nice pool to hang out in all day. We <span style="font-size: large;">basically lived</span> in that pool by the way!!!<br />
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Monkey #2 wasn't tall enough to ride alone on the hotel's waterslide but Mom & Dad were happy to go with her.<br />
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Now, pre-band, I would have still gone on the waterslide but I would have felt self-conscious. Not this year, I really didn't think about walking around in my bathing suit. <br />
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Do I have a rocking body? NO!!! Do I have a normal "mom body?" Hell yes. <br />
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</tbody></table>I did NOT journal my food while on vacation. I DID eat some things I shouldn't have like Pecan Sandies and puffy Cheetos. I DID go to the gym every day but one and worked out hard!!! I did NOT have a binge while under the influence of alcohol...it was close, but friends and hubby kept an eye on my Cheetos consumption. I DID do a great job at portion control of meals. Overall, I DID have a wonderful time. <br />
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Yesterday, I weighed in at 146 and started journaling my food and exercise again. (TOM so my weight was more retention related than vacation related...thank goodness!) Today, 143 lbs. So I seemed to have maintained while on vacation. Phew. Thank you band.o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-25387343806535760042012-07-14T20:44:00.000-07:002012-07-14T20:44:06.356-07:00Ten Things.........Saturday. Yep, I don't care...I am doing it anyway!I have been away from my computer for far too long.<br />
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I have been reading your posts, commenting...but not as often as I should..... but where has my motivation to write gone??? who knows? <br />
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I am dedicating this TTT to update all of you on my weird pains....stomach- back-side pain...is this a band slip type situtaion? <br />
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1. had a total unfill about a month ago.<br />
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2. Upper GI came back fine. No slip...yippee<br />
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3. Had an abdominal ultrasound to check things out....everyone seemed to be leaning towards the gallbladder acting up.<br />
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4. Ultrasound came back great! Had the doc who read the ultrasound, the GP, and my surgeon all confused.<br />
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5. Apparently, nothing is wrong with me......except for the weird 9-12 hour episodes of horrible pain and the chills 3 different times over May and June. But nothing seems to be wrong.<br />
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6. found out my stoma can hold 24 cc in volume. Surgeon says that's a bit on the small size...30 cc is the norm. Really though...who out there knows how big their stoma is?? Could this account for the crazy reaction I have to the slightest fill? Is this why eating even a 1/2 cup of food when I was filled would be impossible? He also said something else was on the small size in diameter. Hmmmmm.<br />
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7. Right now I have 1.5 cc in my band and I think the most I will ever get to is going to be 2.5 cc in a 10 cc band. Crazy huh? I just can't seem to have much in the band with out it slamming shut. (also see #8)<br />
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8. Why so little in the band? <span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: red;">Reason #1:</span></b></span> Well, after a very scary month of being completely UNFILLED, I was able to fight my food addiction and not gain any weight. It was actually kind of scary though. I did have one binge...not too bad...but the event scared me b/c I could have completely gone back to my old ways. It was hard to keep things in check because I could eat whatever I wanted! <span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: red;">Reason #2</span></b></span> <span style="color: black;">I am about 2.5 lbs away from my goal weight of 140. No need to get myself into some crazy pain & stuck episodes for 2.5 measly pounds.</span><br />
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<span style="color: black;">9. Unfortunately, those 2.5 lbs are taunting me. Up and down the scale goes but so far, except for that one HORRIBLE day when I couldn't eat a thing and weighed 140 the next day, that scale will not move below 142. I am not hung up on the number really, but that 140 magical number is my goal and why be content to stop trying this close to it???</span><br />
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10. my BMI is a 26 according to my surgeon. Am I normal and healthy yet????<br />
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Enjoy the rest of your weekend!o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-53324019324655101952012-06-30T06:00:00.002-07:002012-06-30T06:00:06.859-07:00Happy One YEAR Band-a-versary to ME!<span style="font-size: large;"><b>June 30th.</b></span>....<span style="font-size: large;">2011........</span> that was my surgery date.<br />
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I was soooooo nervous. I wasn't worried about anesthesia, or recovery. I was worried about whether I could do "it." You know....lose weight with the band or would I fail again?? Would my husband resent me every month as we made my surgery payment if I wasn't successful??? <br />
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I didn't fail.....and I won't ever.<br />
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I have definitely had my ups and downs this year with my band. (No restriction for months followed by too much restriction.....lots of PB's and the learning curve of how to eat properly with a band.)<br />
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Weight loss has <span style="font-size: large;">not</span> been easy. <br />
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Weight loss has <span style="font-size: large;">not </span>been quick.<br />
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But I am doing it!!!<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><b><span style="color: purple;">June 2012 at 143...loss of 63 lbs. total....so far!</span></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table>I know the band is helping....I have never lost this much weight EVER and been this close to maintenance. I have never eaten small portions with out a boat load of resentment for what I "can't have or the amount that I want." The band has shown me ---mostly through negative consequences----what I can eat and how much of food I can have. I know that exercise pays off. <br />
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I will lose those last few pounds and I will maintain. <span style="font-size: large;">You</span> will all be there to help me.......I know you will..........and because of that, <span style="font-size: x-large;">I will </span><span style="font-size: x-large;">not fail.</span>o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5836943342906746999.post-27813855736539288712012-06-28T14:04:00.000-07:002012-06-28T14:04:26.364-07:00Ten Things THURSDAY!!!<div style="color: blue; font-family: Verdana,sans-serif;"><b>Thanks again to the lovely and hilarious Laura Belle for our TTT.</b></div><br />
1. WHY CAN'T I FIGURE OUT HOW TO LINK LAURA BELLE's blog to mine when I try and thank her????? This boggles the shit out of my pea brain!<br />
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2. <span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><b>update on my tummy issues<span style="color: black;">: </span></b><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">had the upper GI last week. Here's how it went:</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">*radiologist said "do you have a special kind of lap-band?" (oh shit!! this can't be a good start to the x ray)</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">my response was NO.... but why? he said "it looks like you have an extra small stoma." I told him that my band was <span style="color: #674ea7;">COMPLETELY empty</span> and didn't know what else to say about what is considered a normal sized stoma or not! </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">Ultimately, he did some measurements, said he didn't see a band slip, and everything with the band looks good. Esophagus looked good. (His report arrived a few days later and confirmed that. Follow-up call and letter by my GP said the same --now on to a gallbladder ultrasound. Going to send reports to band dr. too)</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">3. I bought my first pair of <span style="font-size: large;"><b>size 6 </b></span>shorts last weekend. They do have a little stretch in the denim BUT I will take it. By the way, I think my butt looks good in them!!! That's some good self-talk for a change! Did I mention.........<b><span style="font-size: large;">size 6</span></b>????? I was a size 6 once...<span style="font-size: large;">for about a week</span>.....back in the 90s when I was taking the miracle diet drug phen-phen....it was such a good week. ha ha!</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">4. You may not have caught in <span style="font-size: large;"><b><span style="color: orange;">item #2</span></b></span> but I am completely unfilled. <u><i><span style="font-size: x-large;">This is a scary place for a food addict.</span></i></u> I have made a few bad choices (i.e. a slice of pizza, some orzo pasta, a sandwich from Sub*ay....not that these foods should be totally off limits BUT for the last 7-8 months I COULD NOT eat them b/c my band wouldn't allow me too) but limited the quantity. I am trying to follow the "band rules" even though I know I physically don't have any limitations. Man this is hard.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">5. Being off work for the summer means I can work out every day! Yeah for toning!</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">6. I hit my goal weight of 140 two weeks ago after not eating for a few days because of the the stomach and back pain. It didn't last....I knew it wouldn't.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">7. I weighed in at 143.5 today so I still have 3.5 to lose to get to maintenance. I want to maintain between 138-142.</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">8. Lap-band dr. is out of town. Waiting for him to return to get his advice at how we move forward from here. I am thinking that I just want to go back to maybe 3 cc in my band and see if that will be doable for maintenance. (I am a bit anxious though about how many fills that will take since my body freaks out at the smallest fill--my "paid in full" year is almost up---how expensive will this be??)</span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">9. I purchased new workout wear from Old N*vy on-line. I still have a hard time ordering Mediums...I always want to hedge and at least try large <span style="font-size: xx-small;">(let alone XL or XXL or plus.)</span> I think my brain has some catching up to do with my new sizes. </span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: black;"><span style="font-size: small;">10. I know I still haven't posted any pictures. I don't know why......I seem to talk myself out of taking the 'after" pictures. I am going to get over this though---just you wait.</span></span></span>o.c. bandsterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05762026852582068843noreply@blogger.com5